Anger. It's a peculiar yet predictable emotion. It
begins as a drop of water. An irritant. A frustration.
Nothing big, just an aggravation. Someone gets your
parking place. Someone pulls in front of you on the
freeway. A waitress is slow and you are in a hurry. The
toast burns. Drops of water. Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip.
Yet, get enough of these seemingly innocent drops of
anger and before long you've got a bucket full of rage.
Walking revenge. Blind bitterness. Unharnessed hatred.
We trust no one and bare our teeth at anyone who gets
near. We become walking time bombs that, given just the
right tension and fear, could explode.
Yet, what do we do? We can't deny that our anger
exists. How do we harness it? A good option is found in
Luke 23:34. Here, Jesus speaks about the mob that killed
him. "'Father forgive them, for they do not know what
they are doing.'"
Look carefully. It's as if Jesus considered this
bloodthirsty, death-hungry crowd not as murderers, but
as victims. It's as if he saw in their faces not hatred
but confusion. It's as if he regarded them not as a
militant mob but, as he put it, as "sheep without a
shepherd."
"They don't know what they are doing."
And when you think about it, they didn't. They hadn't
the faintest idea what they were doing. They were a
stir-crazy mob, mad at something they couldn't see so
they took it out on, of all people, God. But they didn't
know what they were doing.
And for the most part, neither do we. We are still,
as much as we hate to admit it, shepherdless sheep. All
we know is that we were born out of one eternity and are
frighteningly close to another. We play tag with the
fuzzy realities of death and pain. We can't answer our
own questions about love and hurt. We can't solve the
riddle of aging. We don't know how to heal our own
bodies or get along with our own mates. We can't keep
ourselves out of war. We can't even keep ourselves fed.
Paul spoke for humanity when he confessed, "I do not
know what I am doing." (Romans 7:15, author's
paraphrase.)
Now, I know that doesn't justify anything. That
doesn't justify hit-and-run drivers or kiddie-porn
peddlers or heroin dealers. But it does help explain why
they do the miserable things they do.
My point is this: Uncontrolled anger won't better our
world, but sympathetic understanding will. Once we see
the world and ourselves for what we are, we can help.
Once we understand ourselves we begin to operate not
from a posture of anger but of compassion and concern.
We look at the world not with bitter frowns but with
extended hands. We realize that the lights are out and a
lot of people are stumbling in the darkness. So we light
candles.